Early Thursday...

What a day yesterday was. Needless to say, I didn't get everything finished I needed to. And today is shaping up to be the same kind of day. Appointments at 10:30, 1, 2:30, 6 and then karaoke tonight. Good thing I'm up early. It's a bad feeling when you wake up at 4:30 and your mind kicks in gear. There's no going back to sleep after that. So, time to get rolling...yessss....
So every Wednesday night is Bible study with the older people. There will end up being around 10 of us. Good time. We started in 1 John, which happens to be one of my favorite places to read. In chapter 1, we read, "This is the message we have heard from Him and announce to you, that God is light and in Him there is no darkness at all. If we say we have fellowship with Him and yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth."
For a long time in my life, there was an area of self-centeredness that was causing me to walk in the darkness. So I read here that if I say I hav fellowship with God, I cannot walk in the darkness. In fact, I'm flat out lying if I try to say this. Which I was for quite some time. There are so many areas that if we were living consistently, we would be operating like a machine. All of the pieces working together. But when we quit trying in this area or that area, or we are hiding in this or that area, all areas suffer. My greatest weaknesses will overpower my greatest strengths everytime.
I want to practice the truth. I'm at peace when I practice the truth. Yet I can't hide if I'm practicing the truth. I can't pretend. I must live in the reality of life. The realities that I have been damaged. That I am afraid. That I am overwhelmed and that I need help. To quit playing Christian and live Christ-follower.
On a lighter note, anyone that looks me in the face and says that cats are smart, I beg to differ. Cats are dumb animals. I just watched my cat use the litter box. Then, as it began trying to cover up it's mess, this stupid animal is scratching the plastic side of the box. This dumb animal doesn't push the actual litter stuff on top of its mess. It scratches the side of the box. With its eyes closed. This cat stinks up my kitchen. Wakes us up in the morning by crying at our bedroom door. Sharpens its claws on our furniture and carpet. It gets outside multiple times a week, which causes my children much panic. I'm really kicking myself that I gave in to my kids to get this stupid animal.
On another lighter note, the fundraising process for our Chicago trip next year is still going strong. We're up to $1450 from candy sales, Change for Change and pop cans. PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE, keep bringing cans in. Just had a small load yesterday, but I've got a jump start on next week. And I've got people donating other scrap metal to help out. So, please keep them coming. Later, y'all!